so I got to thinking during my 24 hours of travel...
Solo traveler
“This is what the truth feels like” -Gwen Stefani- A sort of year end round up…?
December 31st, 2016 The last day, well the last few hours of this incredibly long year. It’s been a crazy year in the world, from politics and acts of terror across the world, to the loss of some of the greatest artists of our time. Everyone is talking about Bowie taking all his favs with... Continue Reading →
Talking with my monster
Im a 30 year old girl, woman? And Ive discovered the monster in me. Ive described it as a darkness before, a place that is familiar and comfortable that I turn to, and choose to get lost in at times. It brings out the self destructive tendencies, the drinking and the bad choices. Although I... Continue Reading →
Nostalgia
Everywhere I looked I saw us. I saw us in everything. I drove the same routes and streets that we used to, just out of habit. Past our old apartment building, and restaurants we enjoyed together. I felt like a ghost wandering through a graveyard of memories, places that still exist, yet we don't.
“You Deserve Better”
The only way forward is with courage...the courage to move forward ALONE....and to decide that you would rather be alone than repeat unhealthy patterns, because that decision is ultimately a gift to yourself, a chance at finding something truly beautiful, and meaningful, something you are deserving of. And so you see why you must love yourself? Because if you do not, then you have no reason to face these fears, and nothing to fight for.
I guess I watch too many Chick Flicks…
I'm frustrated. It's been months and I'm tired of all the lessons. The inspirational quotes and memes that were once significant and meaningful, now only contradict each other. Peace, forgiveness, loving yourself, acceptance...all beautiful notions in theory and much harder to accomplish in reality. I'm supposed to sit quiet and listen to myself, get to... Continue Reading →
The “Bad Guy” vs “Good Girl” Narrative
Its not to dispel all the good that you did do, or the effort that you made, but why must we dispel the good, and the effort of another simply because they hurt us "more"?
Waking up in Italy
I spent a lot of time these last few months repeating in my head "you are in Italy, you are in Europe, look at the buildings, look at the streets", in an attempt to make myself realize how awesome it is to be here, to be living a dream that I have had for so long...
I was going to call this “aloneness” but then…
I woke up today and felt an overwhelming sensation of "aloneness". Different than loneliness in that my idea of loneliness is that you miss someone, not necessarily someone specific, but you have an idea of someone or something to miss. Aloneness, this feeling that I woke up with is heavier. I can't feel lonely for... Continue Reading →
A Valentines Tragedy
I was fearful that Valentines Day was going to be rough, I have 3 consecutive good Valentines experiences on record, previous to these happy memories I subscribed to the notion that Valentines was a capitalist holiday, and well I was just too cool to care about something so pathetic with all the flowers and chocolate... Continue Reading →
